Forever Changed

​The day my LIFE changed, forever.

 As I was growing up as a kid, especially from 13 years old to 15. Our church would regularly and faithfully have an Altar call. 

My mom kept telling me to go up, she could tell I was resisting the call.

I wanted so much to go up and see the Lord, but I was too ashamed, I was too embarrassed. I thought it was a sign of weakness instead of humility.

I had a battle within me every time they had an Altar call. I so much wanted to go up there, but I just couldn't do it.

One Saturday evening in my room when I was 15 years old, I had my lights out, I was getting ready to go to bed and a woman on the radio was speaking as if she was talking directly to me. She asked would you like to receive the Lord as your personal savior?

 I spoke to her as if she was standing right next to me and said "yes I would". 

She said, do you believe that God the creator of Heaven and Earth sent His only Son Jesus to die on the cross for my sins? I said "yes I do believe". She said, do you believe He rose again on the third day? I responded "I believe". The woman on the radio said, then you are now saved, for as the word says; with your mouth you confess, with your heart you believe(Romans 10:9-11).

At that time, that very instant, I (knew) I was saved. There were absolutely no doubts in my heart. I ran to the kitchen and told my mom  and she cried and hugged me.

I told my mom I wasn't ready to share this, so please don't tell anyone, my mom promised she wouldn't.

That Sunday morning my mom sang a solo, when she was done singing, she just stood there like she wanted to say something. 

I remember whispering, please Lord don't let her say nothing, she promised. 

Then my mom went to sit down and I said thank God. 

But, then my mom got right back up again.

 My mom said "I promised my son, I wouldn't tell anyone but, I'm overwhelmed with joy, Sean, received the Lord as his personal Savior last night. 

I couldn't believe it, she promised. I was so mad at her. But as I became a man, I understood.

I would not come to the Lord, in public, so He decided to actually come after me. How wonderful is that? How great is that?

Now, you might ask what brought all this on? I would love to tell you, last night I was watching a movie called 'THE FORGE,' in the movie the mother told her son, he should go to church so he could get to know the Lord. Her son replied, "why do I have to go to church, the Lord knows where I am, I'm right here, He can find me if he wants to."
And then he received the Lord as his personal Savior in his room, and then I remembered, that's exactly what He did for me. I was trying to figure things out by myself and I realized I needed Jesus.

Mom, if you're reading this, I don't know how many times you prayed for me, but thank you, I love you Mom.